2010, you were not what I had expected. On January 3 of our dear 2010, I wrote a post declaring to all (who read this blog) that 2010 was going to be a great year. I could feel it. I was a little misguided by my optimism I think. I mean, it wasn't a bad year, could have been better, but it most definitely wasn't what I expected.
To focus on the good seems appropriate nonetheless: Marcus did, in fact, receive his PhD after a lot of work. He was selected for a post-doctoral program with Kaiser Permanente. We continue to bunk with his parents (well, we have a separate room from them) until this post-doc is over (thank you!). Sammy has continued to progress. Callie is continuing to progress. I've been busy to the 10th degree and so have accomplished much, but have also been distracted along the way and have NOT accomplished much of what I had intended. I had thought that 2010 would bring a lot of changes within myself -- changes I felt would happen because I felt so motivated. My entire world was going to change because I was ready. Guess not. And I really thought we'd have a baby by now. We're still not even approved. (big 'ole sigh) Perhaps, though, we don't have a baby yet because I've been too busy to focus on what I need to do for myself to prepare us for a baby? (sigh)
So, fare thee well 2010. You brought me some good, but I'm ready for the fresh start. This year, I have big plans. Oh yes. I am s l o w i n g d o w n. That's my plan. There are things I want to do, and I'll still do some of my projects. I mean, really, you can take the girl out of the project, but you can't take the projects out of the girl. uhhhh, that didn't turn out like I'd thought. What I mean is that I'll always have some kind of project going on, but I'm also going to practice saying "no" to myself so that I'm not distracted from the more important things. That's my thing this year -- my resolution I suppose. Slow down. And perhaps, 2011 will be the year that I had intended 2011 to be.