I've been so completely out of it lately. So much has been going on I can hardly keep my head straight it seems. I've been burdened with a lot of worry...a bit of fear...and it has totally taken over me. I've never had this experience before. And I've come to a point where, unfortunately, I have shut down. It's hard for me to put my heart into anything but my family. At least, I guess, I feel like I can put heart into them. I've really really struggled.
Then, today, something clicked. I talked to a friend and began to cry a little. Surprisingly, it helped. I also taught a lesson in Young Women. It went well. In fact, it was fantastic...if not for them, for me. Afterward, I held a presidency meeting with our class presidency. This is something I've been wanting to do for a very long time, but today, we started and set up a schedule to do it regularly. Today we celebrated Scotty's birthday and played with Nathaniel. I talked to my mom on the phone. And I started looking for a house for rent for a family moving here from Michigan. I accomplished good things today. And it made a difference.
A few times last week I logged on to update our blog and almost immediately logged out. I didn't have anything to say...even though I did. humph Anyway, now I'm back in the swing of things. No more Ms. Out-of-it. I think I've turned a corner and am ready to live again. And it feels good (or at least, better).